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Sloan Bashinsky's avatar

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Amazing

I'm still here

Good thing

couldn't see the future,

I might have freaked out,

run away,

leaped off a high building

into a volcano

or a tornado

or maybe a electric grid

or nuclear reactor

or tsunami

or a glacier

or a star

yea, even a black hole,

all of which I did anyway.

How many different lives

in one?

Let me count.

if I can.

pre school,

elementary school,

college,

law school,

working for my father,

practicing law,

becoming a writer,

becoming a poet,

becoming a mystic,

8 women close to me

saw parts of it,

8 entirey different lives.

with entirely different

remarkable women,

not easy for them

being with me,

wasn't easy for me

being with me,

then came #9

I was out to pasture

she had other plans,

and spells,

she's a witch,

who'd have ever thunk?

weaving, weaving, weaving,

waking up parts of me

I had lost, forgotten, thrown away,

or never even knew where there,

like my writings and poems

and soul drawings had done,

still sometimes do.

I was praying for the Lord to take me,

my star had run its course,

she has other plans,

I quit making plans long ago,

tired of God laughing at me,

but now I look forward to

waking up mornings,

she did that,

she does that,

and neither of us

can go to sleep at night,

until she rubs my back,

conks us both out,

zzzzz

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Su Terry's avatar

Ted Hughes is an underrated poet, thanks for posting this.

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Michael Portelance's avatar

"Ideas that collapse

at the first touch of attention'.

That's me now, not all but enough to notice.

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Corie Feiner's avatar

"Numbed from the blurred accident

Of having lived,"

This line struck me in my heart. How life can seems like a blur and also, the so much of our lives are on automatic pilot and can be like accident after accident... and then the humbling physicality of accidents and age.

I am so intrigued by how the perspective of the poem is written from Old Age as if it is a sort of character playing out its role in the play of his life. His words are so carefully chosen and I love how he speckles words in there to indicate the slowness of old age and the need for support on multiple levels.

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Deborah Nolan's avatar

So much to ponder on in this - especially for someone old like me. That window frame, I shall lean on it and let the poem surround me.

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Corie Feiner's avatar

As a woman in her 50's I see the horizon and vulnerability of life. I also was lucky enough to have grown up with my grandmother and also great grandparents which gave me a broad perspective about life while young. (Of course I did not know it then.) Yes, much to ponder. I love how you wrote "That window Fram, I shall lean on it and let the poem surround me." So poetic in itself.

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em cawley's avatar

This poem pulls me two ways. First, the weariness, the tiredness, the attrition of old age, is so well captured. In the morning, the first waking moments, the inventory of functions.

In the other direction, it pushes me to think, Ok, you're old, but you're getting up and making these precise observations. That is something to be held and cherished.

This is not a complaint. It's a great poem still.

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Jason Gorway's avatar

At once, haunting and mysteriously comforting. Present time is elusive yet always beckoning us to its altar.

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Bob Barraclough's avatar

"Sitting on the edge of the bed..." Lord, I did exactly that this morning.

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Joanne Sprott's avatar

Nothing like a Ted Hughes poem to start the day.

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rKf's avatar

So true, this poem sketches the outline and then

fills in some of the details.

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Solero Taylor's avatar

BABY BABY BABY

{from 'I Got The Feelin'

If I was wrong

About Simon Armitage,

Commander of the British Empire

Who said, without irony, I think

'Poetry is a form of dissent'

I'm not going to waste time

Arguing about it

I can't be arsed

Most nights I go out

And dance

The Empire made a famine

Out of Ireland and India

Dependents out of Africa

Opium slaves of China

Maybe Simon agrees

Maybe Simon disagrees

I've just battered Ted Hughes

In the carpark

By The Moon

A discotheque

James Brown

James Brown

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Deborah Nolan's avatar

Then leaves the spaces for each of us to enter.

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Vince Roman's avatar

Thanks for sharing this

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